I dont know what to do

So I really want to go to the AZ missions trip. But I also want to go to a leadership camp. Ive wanted to go to this camp for awhile but its the same week as the AZ missions trip!!! I could go a different week but that week it would be across the state. And I dont think I have any way to get there. Im really confused now. Because I know I need to go on the missions trip. But I also know God wants me to be a leader. So what do I do? Im not quite sure yet. Ill really be praying about it though! My mom said she'll ask people in my choir class if any of them are going to the camp as well. I really hope I can go because its what I need to help me. But other than the missions trip confusing. I also have more confusion-Health. Ive been sick for a long time but its never really been bad until this year. I got really sick on Tuesday night. I couldnt stop shaking/twitching and my stomach was hurting really bad. I was constantly dizzy too. I dont understand what God is doing through this. and I might never know. But Im so confused, and lost. Im not sure what to do. I know I need to have faith and trust him but its just so hard! Mom called the childrens hospital today and talked a nurse from the adolescent center or something. I got excited about it because it gives me more hope. It gives me something to look forward too. Maybe they'll figure out everything thats wrong with me-and fix it!!! or maybe not. We dont know and we wont until I go and see (another) doctor.

Hmm...

Again I havent written for so long! Im sorry!
On Friday I had volleyball practice for 3 hours so that was my workout, and then on saturday this was my workout:
40 supermen
20 leglifts
50 individual
20 bridges
160 lower arms
30 wing
50 curls
and then i played Basketball with my brother for about an hour or so. (:

Ive been thinking about the Arizona missions trip. And I finally decided-Im going. Im taking the step and Im gonna go on the missions trip. Im totally siked about it and I cant wait until we start having meetings and stuff for it. Its totally amazing how not even acouple days of praying and thinking about it could totally give me a definite answer!!! (: I know Im supposed to go. I can totally feel it in my stomach(sorry i dont feel it in my bones:)
Im still reading the book about BJ Higgins and its making me even more excited about AZ. I hope Im really ready to go by the time it comes. Because right now. Im not. Im not even close to being ready! I know right now Ive gotta focus on Biology...Yes biology. Im having a really hard time with it so its my main focus right now besides AZ. (:

Arizona Missions Trip

This year I might be going on my first long-distance missions trip!!! Im so excited about it but at the same time I wanna cry because Im so scared. I know acouple days ago I wrote how I want to die for God but first Ive gotta live for him too. Well right in from of my face theres an opportunity. And I dont know if Im really going to take it. I talked to my Youth Pastor about it and he said I need to take a step of faith. And to me its like taking a step into complete darkness...not knowing where Im going or whats gonna happen. But I really do think Im going to take that step. I asked my dad if I could go on the trip and he said Id have to talk to God. But I have. And I think Im going!!!

Sorry for not posting.

I know I havent posted for acouple of days, and I am sorry!
Here are the past couple of days of my exercises:
Sunday, January 11th
30 supermen
20 leg lifts
50 individual leg lifts
20 bridges
140 lower arm
35 flapping whatever-theyre-called

Monday, January 12th
I played volleyball for an hour and a half

Tuesday, January 13th
30 super men
20 leglifts
50 individual leg lifts
20 bridges
140 lower arm
30 flapping whatever-theyre-called
30 arm lifts
20 back

For school Ive been reading a book about BJ Higgins and I feel like I always say I'll die for Jesus, but I think to myself...Ive gotta live for him first...

Sooo.....

I am so determined to be on a regular exercise program but everytime I make one up for myself I never go through with it. It lasts a week and then I stop and dont start up again. Well this time. Im going to keep up with this workout. To help me Im going to post on here everyday or every other day what Ive done. :D good idea right? I think so. Ive got a friend helping me. He gives me tips and helps keep me motivated!
Here's what I did today:(idk how to explain what any of them arm and I dont know the proper names for them =P )
25 supermen (where you put your hands behind your back while lying flat on the floor and keep your legs together, lift your legs off the floor, keep them in the air and go in circles..)
15 leglifts (put your hands under your back, lift your legs off the floor and go up and down, up and down, etc)
30 individual leg lifts (same as above only right leg goes up and while coming down left leg goes up)
15 bridges (last year my physical therapist gave me this exercise for my back. I dont know how to explain it)
20 cat-stretches (My PT gave me this one too for my back and i also dont know how to explain it)
115(per arm) lower arm ( sit on a chair and lay you arm onto of it palm facing up. use a 3-5 pound weight and move your wrist up and down)
25 (per arm) arm lifts (works out your upper arm muscles)
15(per arm) (different verison of arm lifts and works out the muscles near your shoulder blades)
30 (per arm) arm flaps or whatever ("flapping" your arms slowly while holding weights. works out you shoulder muscles)
So I hope you can understand what I was trying to explain. :)

Im Cold

So Im really cold right now and my dad even put on the coal stove!!! I hate being cold and always will hate being cold. Im sorry cold-lovers! So the other day I accidentally popped a string on my guitar and i started crying about it. *blush* My dad took it to the guitar store today and got a new string put on it. He also got me 2 more picks so now Ive got 6. I have a favorite one. Its deformed. =) Today I learned to play "amazing grace" by Chris Tomlin. =) I like the way it sounds and I love the song altogether. Im going to try and learn the song "Indescribable" by him too. My brother plays the guitar really well so I might ask him to play with me and to help me get better so I can play on the church bus. I really like playing so If I get better maybe soon I can start playing on there. =D Today wasnt really too exciting. I did school work which was okay and I slept alot. I dont know why. My sleeps being getting worse. But I guess this is just a phase Im going through. Hopefully Ill return to normal. =)

Great past couple of days

So the past couple of days have been pretty good. Im trying to have as much fun as possible till school starts up again. =D I actually cannot wait for school to start again because I need to catch up on alot of stuff and I want to learn more. =) For my 10th grade year (next year) I might go to the community college to take some extra courses for school. Ive been talking to my dad about it and Im hoping it'll work out. He said on credit for one class is about $200. So Im trying to figure out where the money is gonna come from. =D
This past week I called a nursery school up the street and asked if I could apply and see if I coul work there. If I do get the job Im going to try and save up as much money as I can for a truck and my college courses. Im just so excited to really start my life. Adventures, problems, and everything. Im so excited for all this to start. =D

So Sorry

So Sorry for not coming on here to write. Alyssa is doing great! She's home and her motor/speech skills are really improving. Please pray she'll make a full recovery. :)

So Christmas was really good this year! We all had fun and Christmas day was exciting. Our whole family got a 26-inch falt screen, and a PS2. I got the guitar I wanted and havent stopped playing since I got it. :) I went over my friend Jean's house friday saturday and Sunday. And I had a great time. She had a mini party for her close friends including her boy friend, brother, me, and 2 other friends. It was pretty fun. I got to meet her sister and her brother-in-law. I also met the little handicap girl she babysits every other Saturday. She's 12 with the mind of a 3 year old. and Shes so beautiful! She followed me around all day saturday and really talked alot which was surprising to my friend Jean. On saturday night she had 2 seizures. Thankfully I wasnt in the room when she had them or I might have broke down crying. Well I dont have to much else to say. Ill most likely post some pictures from Christmas soon!

Please Pray For Alyssa

So a 21-year-old girl in our church named Alyssa M. was in college when she found out she had a tumor on her brain. She came back home here in PA and got more tests done and found out she was going to need surgery to remove the Tumor. On Mnday December 15th 2008 Alyssa was in surgery for 5 or so hours. She came out alive and the tumor gone I suppose. She was doing great and her speech was coming back. Until Wednesday when She started to go down hill. We hadnt heard anything else until this morning when I recieved a text message saying, "Pray 4 Alyssa! Shes in critical condition and today determines whether she lives or dies. Keep her and her family in your prayers!" And just knonw I heard she had 6 seizures this morning and swelling on her brain. Please pray for her.

First Post

So Im going to try once again to have a blog. Ive tried multiple times before but they never really did work out. So here I am again. =) I hope you enjoy reading about my day to day life. =)